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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

\\*hurt this time:(*//

seriously i felt v hurt this time round, 1st time in my 24yrs of life i felt this way...why, what's wrong? i cant talk to anyone regarding this issue, honestly no one!
i did my very best to be a good gf after that incident. but it seemed that the incident made him lose all the trust in me. didnt blame him, afterall it was my fault & he's really great to forgive me, which i truly appreciated & treasure.

i wanted v much to go TWN with my buddy this coming Sat. i knew he will feel uneasy, thus i rejected my buddy. he thought i should but i was really upset. i have never been to any trip with any frenx:( when i asked him to go, the most is a 3D2N but where can we go? Malaysia? i dunwan! everything i do, i tried to put myself in his shoes, but did he do that? all he thought was i am unreasonable etc...really tired, stress etc...

always the jovial gal, but...

Obsessed|9:56 AM|

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Saturday, March 12, 2011

\\*`easily irritated`*//

i have officially moved back to Mum's house (separated for 4 month plus); felt a sense of relief, @ least i dint have to lie about my r/s anymore:) though the few few weeks felt horrible, i am lucky to have a frenx who's there for me all this while; a big thx to him.

as Mum was sick, i dint bring baobei back over the weekends. clubbing on Fri, ECP on Sat & K-box on Sun, woohoo...got to know a buddy's frenx @ club. though he's of the same age as me, he's rather mature & wen zhong. quite a nice guy overall:)

haix & becoz of this guy i knew, i argued with the guy whom helped me...what's wrong with making new friends etc?

anyway, tired liao...nitex...

Obsessed|7:59 AM|

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Wednesday, February 23, 2011

\\*MIA long enough*//

wa frm last Sept till this yr i haven been blogging. dear blog, i am vexed...what can i do besides blogging? before i start, i shall no longer made any comments in my f/t job as of today:

i am back to single life again, but this time regardless of what, i have my baobei there to acc me:) i dint dare to tell anyone my problems, i dint want anyone to worry. every night before going home i have been thinking, 'wad should i do', 'how shd i tell them i am coming home again' etc...all sort of qns came out & none i can ans. few year of r/s gota end soon. i am sad, not becoz i cant bear to leave. infact, leaving is the best option coz i will be alot better w/o him.
i have made my choice. with this kinda pple beside me, i rather leave & forget him.

arh, i missed Japan; simply lurve there. how i wish i can stay there always.

Obsessed|7:59 AM|

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

\\*...*//

waiting patiently for my Japan trip with family in Nov:)

nowadays feeling tired yet cannot sleep, y? erm showing signs of getting old...many many things happened, but i duno where & how should i start?

haix finally understood y people told me that guys & gals can never be best of friends, esp. the age gap differ by nearly 20yrs. is 'excitement' really that fun?

arh shall not talk about it; listening to my Jay's songs & going to iron my clothes; ever since dear started wrking, ironing is done by me, myself & i...satisfy with it so far:)

Obsessed|9:18 AM|

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Tuesday, July 6, 2010

\\*moody:(*//

back to the so-called home, dear is at least starting to get a little better:) but the house, with that mad woman around, is never peaceful. many things happened at home, she & uncle got grandma to back them up; knn i looked down on them. 1 guy, age 45, still need to ask grandma 4 help. 1 mad woman, age 45 too, said if she were ever to get beaten by uncle again, she will leave for good & never to come back. in the end, like a dog followed back. last week they had a fight, me still thought OT came home can rest, in the end police came coz involved weapon. aiyo fancy both still still childish. anyway since she's back, i will not tolerate her.

1 word to describe wrk: sianx...new boss came; he doesnt seem to be friendly, unlike the previous one. met him once in the pantry, didnt quite like to talk, PR skill haix...i am tired with all the talkings, no action nothing. in the end, i myself suffer...what to do? manager mah, can say everyday do reports, attend to urgent matters bla bla bla then throw everything to us. anyway, she's a assett to the company; she's able to control the team. well that's company's point of view. work so hard, never get appreciated, a simple 'thanks' will brighten up the day. TCT, so what we did not hit the target? at the end of the day, who benefits most from all this? haix the person who throw her stuff to us! machiam a walking zombie nowadays; dint feel like talking to anyone. asking me for a solution to lighten my workload. gave her a solution; passed one of the country i in-charged over to another colleague. in the end, told me Aust., SGP and MYS i am not allowed to hand over. reason: big customers. conclusion: can hand over small country like PHL & BRN but will not look nice on me if i get the colleague to do. btw, for PHL & BRN, tenders received last than 10 per yr. so, wad's the conclusion: no conclusion @ all! bullshitting...@ 1st taught me PO; just need me to do during every 1st week of the month, sort of i am the backup. now, it's the other way round. so sick n tired of those stupid mtgs between us. everything is us, exclude her, unless it's too simple she will do.

had a eerie dream of a friend, a long-lost friend. been dreaming of this person since i married. update when i free...nitex...

Obsessed|11:14 AM|

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Sunday, May 16, 2010

\\*time flies...*//

i went back to mum's hse to stay for @ least 3 weeks; honestly, i prefer mum's place, it's kinda no stress etc, comparing to what i called home but it's not a home to me. after 3 weeks, i was been shifted back:( haix wad's wrong with me? guessed i was just too soft-hearted:(
1 week back to the so-called home; everything's still fine. haha we sure c wad will come next...

bro told me never ever mentioned any unhappiness in wrk in my blog. besides blogging, where else can i vent my anger? blog, to me, is a place for me to write down my personal thoughts etc. if i have to hide centain things, wad's the point of blogging? i am also a normal human beings whom have temper!
mon to thur seemed fine 2 me, just as usual, a little sian to go work, see people's striking thunderstorm on someone. who knows, fri the thunderstorm's striking on me! our hod went on a biz trip to phl. 'she' got a call frm hod, asking y i have not submitted my quote to a cust. in phl. haix arrow shooting to my direction. 'she' realized i have the quote in hand but have not send to cust., asked me y. dun everyone think it's stupid to ask this qns? obviously i have not do the quote lah, lame ans i gave...frm then, both of us gave each other a black face, who cares anyway? how would you ans when someone asked u to give a reason as to y are u overloaded? i am pissed off with people who are trying to be nice, wad a hypocrite! @ first told me things like: ohh, we will find a solution so you wouldnt be overloaded, erm when i finish my stuff i will help you to key PO etc...READ CAREFULLY THE 2ND SENTENCE: help me key PO! hello, PO is 'her' job, i am only 'her' backup for the 1st week of every mth when 'she' is doing report, when has this become my job? honestly, i dun mind wrking more/ for others, but 'she' is taking things for granted. knn in the end told me what, you must hit the target, if not bonus kana affected. who got the most bonus if we hit our taget? 'she' only mah...

arh dun tok about wrk, ltr still gota wrk...gota sleep now le, quite tired despite many hrs of sleeping yesterday:(

Obsessed|9:17 AM|

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

\\*MC again*//

haix y magrain keep looking for me these days? i hate magrain, making me so sick:( stress, not with work. infact, i rather go to work than to stay at this f**king home; it's killing me:( i just wana a guy who can listen to me attentively, share our joy & saddness etc. but, i have found the wrong one. outside, he seemed to be an Ah Beng/ wadever. at home, he's just a daddy boy i guessed. whatever the elderly said, they are always right. i am not brought up like this, so please dun ever use this on me!!! i regretted this marriage, honestly. if i could turn back time, i will give birth 2 baobei, but i will NEVER marry. single parents are very common nowadays.
there seemed to be something that is blocking me from leaving here, wondering what's wrong.

bought a pair of black heels for my p/t job. haha simply lurve black heels with bling bling:) Fri nite gota wrk, from 10pm-2am. location etc wise not known yet. Berl asked y i need to tired myself. gal, this is not called tired. at least better than staying at home doing nothing. i gota find xtra cash, for both me & baobei. hey, i gota take up both the mother's & the father's role leh, not easy.

he doesnt wana me to work p/t, i guessed it's because of the person who intro me the job. but too bad, no matter how i will go wrk de. unless he can wrk to support me & baobei. i just wana stable life, not everyday gota worry about money etc, am i wrong to hope for this? i really can no longer tolerate this, very stress liao...chances have been given, in the end, it lead to hopeless. i can no longer depend on this guy...anyone has a good lawyer to intro?

Obsessed|1:06 AM|

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